Predicament: a word that has four syllables, pre-dic-a-ment. It's definition, according to Merriam-Webster, is defined as an unpleasantly difficult, perplexing, or dangerous situation. I couldn't agree more. What makes a predicament so difficult is that one must decide amongst various options as to how to resolve the issue at hand. The catch, however, is that each of the options to be chosen from has possible detriments to both the person and those around him/her. Taking one route potentially serves the person well but in turn, affects another. Whereas another path assures that no one else is affected but at the expense of the person who finds themself in the predicament. 

Shall the person be selfish and look at one's own needs and act accordingly? Or does that person put one's self to the side to ensure that the "status quo" is maintained, all the while sacrifcing their own self interest?

This all depends on the situation being discussed of course.

But as such, a predicament is what I find myself in.

Wow....back at the xanga again. Never thought I'd make a triumphant return here but hey, as time passes, you get more material to write about. Am I right? Quick question, what happened to xanga? I mean, seriously wasn't this thing the shit? I dunno, maybe it was because I had a lot invested into this thing. And then things like myspace and facebook came along and the tower known as "xanga" came atumbling (spelling?) down. Whatever I guess. As I've said before, gives me free range to speak my mind.

So what's new with the Kutmasta? Well, the last time I wrote on this thing, I was buggin out on what to write for a speech for graduation. Seems like yesterday. Well the speech came together and I think overall, went well. The message I sent out I hope was one that my peers will remember. They probably won't, but hey, maybe they'll surprise me. And that's how high school ended for me. Four years come and gone for me. I don't think I'll forget them. Yeah, I went to a rather ghetto school but hey, it's that same ghetto school that granted me the opportunity to meet some great people who I consider my closest friends. I love ya'll and even though I may not get to hang out with you guys or I don't make the effort to keep in touch as much as I should now that I'm down in SD, don't think I consider the friendship any lesser or anything like that. That's my bad and I apologize. I guess I'm just an ostracizing figure....I got all ya'll back. Know that.

Well as mentioned, I'm currently going to UCSD in beautiful La Jolla, CA. It really is a great city.....big baller territory. I decided to (for the moment) major in Pharmacological Chemistry (I know it's a mouthful.) In lay man's terms, it means I'm goin into pharmacology aka legal drug dealing, haha. Classes thus far have been pretty rough. To all the little kiddies out there reading this, college really is different than high school. Gone are the days of "pity points" via homework assignments. Midterm, final. That's your grade; I kid you not. Fuck up on one and yea, you can figure out the rest. So yea, its been a rough time for me. Ideally, I tell myself that I'm just getting acclimated to the college life. Hopefully, that is the case. Wish me luck guys....

As for the topic that I've been known for writing about, girls have, like always, eluded me. And I can man up and say that some of it is my fault but at times, the ball doesn't seem to want to roll my way. It's like it's saying, "Oh, Kurt's over there, lets go this way instead."

Take end of senior year around the time of prom. I was hesitant to even go to prom but after some persuading by my friends and the incentive of being able to ask someone to go with me, I was amped to go.

Little note of discrection, I'm not gonna include names (even though it's a Kurt specialty for me to do so) mainly because if you are reading this, there are two options: A) you already know who I'm talking about and can fill in the blanks, and B) you can personally ask me and I can fill you in. : D

Back to our regularly scheduled programming....

As stated earlier, I was excited to go. The only hurdle left was making the call to make sure all systems were go. Little insight on the situation: I was nervous as fuck and I wasn't sure what I was getting into. Well I made the call only to get her voicemail so I left a message. I didn't like how I sounded, so I deleted that one and recorded another. Yeah, a dork move, I know. So I'm waiting for a call back and I receieve a call from our mutual friend.

Queue ominous music: "Dun dun dun"

According to my friend, she wouldn't be able to make it because of other engagements that just sprang up. I shrugged it off but I couldn't help but think, "Man, that sucks." I would later receive a message online from her reaffirming what my friend had told me. She offered her apologies and I took it in stride. Hey, what can I do? I guess that's why prom wasn't that great for me. Everyone I saw was with somebody and there I was, by myself. Hell, I didn't even do anything afterwards. I got into my Accord, got onto the 10 East and went home, dropping by a Del Taco on the way. Prom you'll never forget right?

Yeah....

"Well what about college, Kurt? Plenty of fishes...."

Yeah, it's true. There are a lot of girls on campus, but to be honest, it isn't chalked full of girls  that I'm really interested in, perse. Don't get me wrong, I've seen hot girls on campus, but sometimes it's slim pickings. I've been right on the money with a few and I've actually befriended some of them by some miraculous chance. However, the dreaded ball again defies me and rolls the other way. This time, the proverbial road block is that they are already in a relationship. What's a guy to do in a situation as dire as that? Now I know all of us at one time or another have heard the R & B crooners sing about how they can take a girl from their man and whatnot, but I don't think that applies to me. I know many will commend me for that, but other than the pat on the shoulder, where does that get me? Don't interpret it me as being a shady person in disguise or anything, but it can get frustrating especially when the luck with girls hasn't been all that great. What to do, what to do?

And then there are the few girls that I do see in class and I think to myself, "She's cute." But that's all it remains, a thought kept to myself. What do I say? I mean, the extent of me knowing this person is that we share a class of around 300 people. Smaller learning environments are really much better for social interactions if you ask me. But I digress. It's this social hurdle that hinders me from really getting out there.

On VH1, there is this new TV show called "The Pickup Artist" where the socially awkward gain advice from a master pickup artist on the ins and outs of being able to build that bridge to getting to know women. It's quite an interesting show even though it's game based. I would have rather preferred if it was just about guys getting advice from the master pickup artist but hey, that's reality TV for ya. Everything's a game. Maybe I'll pick up something from it....

Here's a line that I thought was intriguing. It's sort of an ice breaker when talking to women.

"Did you know that 93% of women masturbate while in the shower? The other 7% sing. Do you know what song they sing?"

No response from woman or answer of "I don't know."

"You must be apart of the 93% that masturbate in the shower."

And then you take it from there....

Well guys, I think I've outlasted my stay this time around. Thanks for reading and thanks for caring. Take care and take it easy and I'll see ya when I see ya. Peace out folks.